Day 13.5: Health and Wellness

Seems I'm double posting today - just wanted to get these thoughts down while they're fresh.

This afternoon, I visited my OB/GYN. No, I'm not pregnant (though it's kinda weird to be in a waiting room full of pregnant women again - it's been over 5 years since I was in their shoes, and I'm pretty darn sure I won't be in those shoes again). Over the last 2 years or so, I've had some re-occurring symptoms that are annoying and tiring to deal with, but not, thank god, an indication of anything serious or life-threatening. These symptoms *may* be an indication of a future thyroid condition or the start of a possible ovarian shut-down. But there is no diagnosis to be made at the point, since the symptoms disappear as often as they re-occur. None of this is brand-new news, but today's appt. just confirmed that my body may be getting ready to go through some kind of major shift - when? nobody knows - or it may not. So basically nothing has been confirmed.

Now, this situation could easily be MUCH worse and I'm very thankful that it is not. It's really just an annoyance and a question, something to obsess over every so often. But it also serves as a reminder of the tenuousness of my physical health. We all know that anything could happen to us at any time - accident, injury, sudden illness - all of these things are possibilities. Perhaps you've already dealt with overcoming some major or minor threat to your health. Perhaps you're still dealing.

Today, of course, my mind went down the path of "Even if I get into peak condition, I'm probably still going to end up with ovarian failure, a thyroid condition or something that will screw up all my hard work. I'll probably get fat, loose all my hair, and be bitter about it". Oh yes, the mind loves to play this game. BUT - here is the real deal: I refuse to play victim to some condition, real or imagined, that may or may not be happening to me. This is one of the reasons I joined y'all on this PCP journey. I am taking charge, taking control of ALL the aspects of my health and wellness that are available to me. I may not be "in control" of my health (or of anything, really), but I can still make choices, make changes that will affect my health positively. The cumulative effect of these positive choices will, I trust, only make me stronger for whatEVER is in my future.

In the meanwhile, I'm planning to kick some serious ASS!

I'm sure many of you have other, more personal reasons for doing the PCP besides getting in shape. Might as well put it out there!

XOXO